I have a general problem with volume control. I also have a problem with self-censoring. This means I am likely to say anything at any time. Someone once said to me that I am an acquired taste like a wine with a tartness that you grow accustomed to. But it means I never quite know where I am going. I am ever changing who I am.
I did community theater for a while. I thoroughly enjoyed acting; I had a script and I finally knew who I was. As I learned my lines, I knew exactly who I was and it was easy to assume the role. I could stray off the written script. I knew who I was in acting life In real life I had no idea who I was. So in real ife I just let my heart lead the way.
My wife knew one thing in her becoming single after her second marriage. Everything had become predictable and she was looking for spontaneity in her life. She ran into me. I don't ever know what is next. I was on the other side of the spectrum.
Our neighbor Anne said she knew we were a different couple one day as she watched us drive out of the court. I drove around in circles in the cul-de-sac over and over again. At one point in the cycle our car went by Anne's house. Anned could see Rachel's face pressed against the window. Rachel was mouthing the word "help!" Yet we both love moments like that.
The first time I worked with Rachel on stage we did a skit in front of the church (300 people per service with two services.). The skit was about the prayer chaplain program. I had written a beautiful script for us to follow. When Rachel climbed on the stage all her lines went out of her head.
I started off asking if I could talk to her. She said she didn't know if her fiancee would agree to that. We got our first laugh because I was her fiancee. I then talked to her about the prayer chaplain program and what it was. I then prepared to talk about the application process and how to do it. As I finished the first section, she looked at me and thanked me. She said goodbye and started to leave. I paniced and said "Wait, you can't leave yet - I have more to tell you." We eventually finished the skit but many felt the skit was a re-creation of George Burns and Gracie Allen.
So our married life now and then has some routine but not a lot. Every day is a brand new canvas and we are likely to put anything on it. I have never had so much fun even when I am going through such incredible health challenges. When I wake up everything is easier when I look next to me and see a beautiful woman. She then sits up and vows "Where is that beautiful woman; I haven't seen her!"
Thank you God! I say often I am your instrument and today I will work on my alarming enthusiasm and my volume control. I will learn to use my indoor voice. My kidney dialysis team has banned me from barking when they are putting the needles in. I can learn new tricks! Or maybe I"m having way too much fun with the old tricks............
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