So the theme of relationships came to mind in the last week. Life is ever changing; it is filled with beginnings and endings. Whether we like it or not, we are always finishing something up or beginning something new. It is the definition of life.
In the midst of all that, we begin to realize it is all about relationship and connection. We are all in relationship - often with a main person. It may be a spouse, a family member, or a close family friend.
Rachel and I are headed toward twenty years together. It has been so easy, so very difficult, magical, filled with play and silliness, and eye opening.
I am amazed at the human condition. We grow up as small helpless creatures dependent on those we believe have all the answers. Then we find out some of the answers are not true. But we plow ahead. I have been blessed with a friendly universe so that all I discovered only pushed me forward to find my internal compass.
It can't be done alone! I repeat, not alone. As you know, I almost died in January - it was touch and go. But here I am and I look around and give thanks to my anam cara - my beloved. I trust her with my life. In fact, that is what I did. She made the decisions when I was in the midst of a series of medical hallucinations caused by the health challenges. She is such a good person. Both of us have imperfections. But as we seek to be our authentic self, we know we have back-up, She is my wingman. She has my back - even in the midst of meltdowns.
It has been said in a relationship the person who is the most sane should lead, We still haven't decided who that person is. Sometimes it is neither of us.
So I am filled with gratitude that on December 16, 3005 at 8:34 AM I received an email asking me out and I said yes! I did not realize I was on my way down the steepest ski slope of all times. What a grand adventure! Thank you my beloved for our precious 3 AM conversations about anything and everything that just deepens it all..............
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